Ok... now what?

​Ok, so I'm ALL IN... now what??

After making the decision to keep doing my work, come what may, I still had no idea how I was going to pay my $2200 medical bill, let alone in 3 weeks time.

Well, guess what. 

The answer didn't come from me.  It came through a phone call as I was sitting in 

my car in a coffeeshop parking lot. A friend who I hadn't talked to in YEARS, who had never actually called me personally ever before, reached out that day. 

Coincidence?​

My friend Allison said, "I can tell from social media that you have a ton of momentum right now, whereas I am totally stuck. I'm looking for inspiration, maybe a project - what are you up to??"

Another GULP moment. 
Ummmmmm....  so do I tell her?? 

​​

The truth was that, except for these last two weeks of total turmoil, I did have some decent momentum going...

and, maybe if I worked this conversation just right, she would want to become a client.... that was certainly an option I could have tried.
​I guess.​

​But the more authentic truth in that moment was that I was freaking out, completely preoccupied by the money deadline hanging over my head. 

I set my pride aside. Another get-real-stay-real moment. 

"Actually, I'm totally freaking out." I said. These words were dying to get out of my mouth before I was 100% ready to say them, but there they were. I told her the story.


"Wait wait wait...." she said, "I'm sorry, did you say it was $2200?"

"Yes. Impossible, right?"

"That due date is exactly 22 days from now.

$2200 in 22 days....  that sounds like.... a GAME!" 
​

What? 
I was pretty sure she had not heard the DIRE TORMENT that I was describing here.

​This is my life, Allison, this is NOT a freakin' GAME, man!

But she continued, "Yeah! Let's put to use all our mindset and manifesting and high vibration tools to make this money happen, Amanda! This will be so FUN! Let's just find money everywhere for you!!" 


Eventually, Allison got through to me. She said things like, 
"This does not have to be hard or torturous."
"What if earning this $2200 becomes the most fun thing you've ever done?"
"What if we are making the topic of "money" mean something that isn't reality?"
"What if this is EASY?"

Her enthusiasm was contagious, and soon, we were off and running... 

We talked every day, shared all our new mindsets about money,
We played little games with ourselves, creating smaller wins and new ideas,
We made a list of possible ways it COULD happen, instead of focusing on reasons it couldn't. 

We took action on those ideas, that had been inspired from a much more expansive place. And, we invited others to play too!

And the money? 

Sure enough, in random, fun, and unexpected ways, it SHOWED UP. 

After 22 days of this, I walked into the payment office with a stack of twenty-two crisp 100-dollar bills in my wallet. 
​​

I remember fully sauntering down that hallway, taking up allllll my space, and pushing open that door like a giant round radiant SUN.

​I was beaming out my pride and triumph as I placed the stack down on the counter and said "3 weeks ago, I had no idea how I could ever pull this off. But here it is, I am paid in full!" ​

Unphased, the employee looked up my account, took my money, printed a receipt, and sent me on my way without so much as a smile, lol. So anticlimactic!

And alas, I looked down at my empty wallet, and realized that the new money I had so enjoyed creating... was now gone again. That is the nature of money after all. Like the wind, it is meant to move through us. 

Again, it was a moment to ask  "So after all this... What DO I have??"

I quickly found that what hadn't disappeared was my newfound Power.

My joy, my fun, and my PLAY around this often-sticky, sometimes outright SCARY topic. 

It didn't have power over me anymore. 
No power to torture or threathen me. 
I could create it now with much more ease, and find my footing even when the deadline loomed large.


Turns out, years later, these breakthrough methods would be tested at an even deeper level, when the stakes were much higher... I'll share what happened more recently in my world tomorrow... ​