All those years ago, when I stared down those thought-monsters living in my head,
and I let the powers beyond my control swoop in (in the form of a friend calling me out of the blue), I could not have predicted how valuable those Money Mindset Muscles would become.
The money itself was gone of course -in and out like the Colorado snow. Just when you think it's more than you've ever seen at once, POOF! The sun comes out and makes you wonder if it even really happened.
And speaking of snow, that is one of the reasons I would soon need
every single ounce of power I had gained in that first $2200.
In October of 2019, just before Covid, my family was driving in the snowy Colorado mountains, and came upon a van stopped squarely in the middle of the road. The driver had gotten out to help another stranded car, but unfortunately, he had left his vehicle unattended in the middle of the icy road. We couldn't stop or go around in time, but luckily we were going sooooo slowly. After we hit the corner of his van, we slid across the oncoming lane, coming to a stop just 10 inches from rolling off the cliff.
It was so scary, and I had some bruises, but incredibly, all 3 of us walked away that night. So grateful.
However, 1 week later, my sweet husband's health rapidly declined. Justin began to have severe seizures every day that looked very much like stroke symptoms. Every few days we'd be back in the ER, he would get a new test, and baffle a new type of doctor. We were just beside ourselves trying to figure out what was wrong. I went into full-on panic mode, trying to maintain some kind of routine for our kiddo, keep us all fed, and coordinate our finances as best as I could. It was a mess, and it went on for 5 long exhausting months like this.
Although everyone's story is unique, perhaps you're familiar the uncertainty circus of which I speak, eh??
So, what happens when life just decides for you that you have to step up your game and rise to the new challenges?
When you have no choice in the matter...
Or, is it even true that you have no choice?
I mean, I suppose I could have just crawled into bed again, for weeks on end.
I had every right to.
Honestly, it's always an option when tragedy strikes, and you'll get no judgies from me.
Personally, I had a husband that could not work, drive, cook, or clean for the foreseeable future, even on his good days.
I had a very social kiddo, 12 years old, who was now navigating online school without social supports.
When I got real this time around, it turned out that my business needed to suddenly start making about $7,700 per month, every month to include all our new expenses.
That was about double the amount I'd been contributing, and I had less than half the hours in the day to make it happen.
And let me just mop up the ocean while I'm at it, ok?
It was not pretty... and I know many households were rocked to their core last year about this time.
Which of your previous victories did you call upon in those moments of uncertainty in 2020?
Tomorrow, I'll share how I got really clear on which problems I would solve and which I would leave behind forever.
With my family's well-being on the line, it definitely changed the Game.
The stakes were much higher, and that "come what may, even in a box" surrender was a lot harder to promise myself. I HAD to make something work, and NOW.
Thanks for all your comments - just 2 "episodes" left in this series - talk to you tomorrow!
Hi, I'm Amanda
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