Of all the new questions I asked myself in those dark moments - with so little energy, time, and bandwidth left - the deepest question I had to face was:
Can I OWN my own VALUE and RECEIVE the same amount of love, energy, and support that I'm giving?
The sweet sweet CRACK of responsible adulthood.
Oh sure, they feel so good in the moment.
You're flying high on all that CONTROL... all that CERTAINTY....
All those beautiful SOLUTIONS you think up....
Details just neatly dropping into their tidy little places.... oh yeah!!!
Everyone happily playing their part, and you can see the results just
All those years ago, when I stared down those thought-monsters living in my head,
and I let the powers beyond my control swoop in (in the form of a friend calling me out of the blue), I could not have predicted how valuable those Money Mindset Muscles would become.
The money itself was gone of course -in and out like the Colorado snow. Just when you think it's more than you've ever seen at once, POOF! The sun comes out and makes you wonder if it even really happened.
And speaking of snow, that is one of the reasons I would soon need
Ok, so I'm ALL IN... now what??
After making the decision to keep doing my work, come what may, I still had no idea how I was going to pay my $2200 medical bill, let alone in 3 weeks time.
Well, guess what.
The answer didn't come from me. It came through a phone call as I was sitting in
As I shared yesterday, there was a time in my business where things went from hanging by a thread to IMMINENT THREAT financially. At least that's how it felt to me.
I was already eating ramen and day-old bread, so when the need for additional money came along (and a couple thousand at that), I had nowhere to cut expenses or dip into savings.
You may not know this, but
A year into my business, I was just barely making ends meet each month. I was thrilled to be living out on my own, teaching a few small classes in my little one-bedroom apartment, but I was worried about money every single day.
I was constantly comparing the timing of my bills to when a client was going to pay - if a client didn't bring their check to class, I was screwed.
My biggest money breakthrough at the time was the day I realized that
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